PAINSYNC, by Virtual Intelligence

PAINSYNC

by Virtual Intelligence

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NuOrdrMan I cannot encourage you enough to to listen to this album and read the artists heartfelt story here on BC. If you can’t feel Nikoletta’s story then you might not be able to feel at all. Its required listening & reading.

Draven A record that brings me back to 90s-2000s Gothic Rock times, with incredible song writing, super aesthetic atmospheres and just darkness and haunting melodies all over the place!

Every track completes the next one and paints a unforgettable story!

This shouldn't miss out of your collection if you are into dark and melodic music! Favorite track: Love is Worth Saving.

Anathe Mal I came for the art, and stayed for the ear worming tracks. Favorite track: Love is Worth Saving.

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1.	Night Angel (闇医者) 05:27	lyrics	buy track
Night Angel (闇医者) Plunge off the edge Dive off into the deepest end To see...yourself Meet with your Truth And grow beyond your foolish youth Leave the dead behind—to die. (Chorus:) Her black dress has bite Her heart is dark as death in the daylight Her lips are blood She is the night Am I not you? Dead dreams still thrive Let’s see them through To purify What aches inside you (Chorus:) Her black dress has bite Her heart is dark as death in the daylight Her lips are blood She is the night Her black dress has bite She’s getting pretty for herself tonight She’s dressed to kill In the neon light Let’s celebrate new life Let’s celebrate new life Let’s celebrate new life At the end of days... (Chorus:) Her black dress has bite Her heart is dark as death in the daylight Her lips are blood She is the night Her black dress has bite She’s getting pretty for herself tonight She’s dressed to kill In the neon light
2.	Fast Acting Cancer Bullets 03:48	lyrics	buy track
Fast Acting Cancer Bullets Please end this pain--I feel pressure To hold back all my hurt--here forever One more step... And you are dead What I covet Is lack of emotion I am bleeding From wounds now reopened My heart is cold From all this dread Just breathe... Breathe And hurt no more. (Chorus:) Light up the night Don’t grow old Stay young For if the end comes here too Know that love conquers all I wanna be with you I’ll kill the world If you don’t make it through Seduce to forget self-destruction Lie with me in disdain My beloved Now let me go... Or I’ll kill you dead And though we are shattered and broken There are words that are best left unspoken What’s the point? Is this the end? Let me go... Let me go... Or I’ll kill you dead. (Chorus:) Darken the day Don’t be afraid Wake up For if the end comes here too Know that love conquers all I wanna be with you I’ll kill the world If you don’t make it through.
3.	Holographic Operative 06:08	lyrics	buy track
Holographic Operative She claims to know about my dark side She claims to know about my pain But darling she don’t know She says she knows all about me But I could give a damn Yeah baby baby darlin’ she don’t know That I’m hiding from the world in plain sight That I’ll never stop until I’m nothing Darling she don’t know She don’t know! Fear or disaster Hit the gas and go faster Get that highway wind in your hair You got it going on Like you don’t care Nah...you don’t care Do you really wanna know the real me? Or are you scared to dive into the darkness Of the unknown? The unknown! (Chorus:) Long ago in childhood I lost my will to breathe For my future worlds would surely be Nothing but pain and suffering In my search for me There I will bleed... There I will bleed... There I will bleed... There I will bleed...
4.	Love is Worth Saving 06:00	lyrics	buy track
Love is Worth Saving It’s the end of days There is no love We only suffer In each other’s arms The world is crashing down No words are sung And if I die young Know... I love you And if we burn to ashes Will you love me too? You... Me... Together... Let’s make our dreams come true When its over its not over Can we go back To what we were? The lights go out Darkness arrives And still the fire burns—in our hearts Panic takes hold We’re locked outside In the cold And if I die I wanna die with you You... Me... Together... Let’s make our dreams come true It’s the end of days There is no love The sky is burning From above The world is crashing down No words sung And if we die young It’s the end of days There is no love The sky is burning Up above The world is crashing down No words sung And if we die young You... Me... Together... Let’s make our dreams come true
5.	My Heart Wants to Kill 04:05	lyrics	buy track
My Heart Wants to Kill Naked Under the shade of a dying star. Angry Afraid That I'm not the chosen one I’ve come to wash the blood off my hands Oh god...what have I done? Close my eyes How the world has changed Herein lies death’s transition What do you say... That I bring you an angel of pain? What do you say... That I be your dark angel of pain? (What do you say that I be your dark angel of pain?)
6.	The Slaves of Her 07:46	lyrics	buy track
The Slaves of Her Now my death has come to pass Don't you dare cry Though I've gone To see the stars Know...this not my last goodbye... I've just gone to find myself 'O where can she be? Does she walk the dangerous streets... Deep down inside of me? My surgeon says I need to settle down As she cuts into my flesh Turning my everything inside out My legs are spread and splayed No parts do I grieve I am a throne of wounds Torn apart from my Adam to Eve (Chorus:) I'll be at peace When there's a war The future stillborn No tomorrow to mourn The end has come And we are no one I'm no one. So here I stand With nothing to show I'm all alone So far below With nowhere to go And no one to love No heaven above In the neon glow (Chorus:) I'll be at peace When there's a war The future stillborn No tomorrow to mourn The end has come And we are no one I'm no one.
7.	The Hurricanes of Saturn 09:32	lyrics	buy track
The Hurricanes of Saturn The coast is cold A dark wind blows in my eyes I’ve traveled far City breeze Is there a life In rainy neon skies? There’s nothing inside There’s nothing inside There’s nothing in... There’s nothing inside I walk the streets In search for something more I fight myself Because... I love war Corporate labor camps Comply And slave to stay Please let me out I want to, I’ve got to, get away Outside... There’s nothing inside There’s nothing in... There’s nothing inside (Chorus:) Be silent, the pain will soon pass Forget not, the nerve gas And wake again from sleep Don’t talk about Just carry out And bring them to their knees Dark power shall we seize If I die tonight Please don’t cry Let me look upon you One last time And kiss you goodbye Say no more For the one thing Worth living for is gone--has gone Can I justify one last sunrise? With what I know I doubt That I’ll make it through without Inside There’s nothing in... There’s nothing inside... (Chorus:) Be silent, the pain will soon pass Forget not, the nerve gas And wake again from sleep

about

On a very personal level, “PAINSYNC” chronicles the last fifteen years of my life--which, needless to say, hasn't been easy. If you have ever felt driven to action in times of chaos, there might be something here for you. Truth be told, “PAINSYNC” was intended to be released to coincide with my gender confirmation surgery on September 10th, 2019, but it ended up taking a lot longer than I anticipated. This is primarily due to many unexpected post-op complications that left me in tremendous debilitating pain for over seven months. My life during this time was for lack of a better term--a body horror. All of the lyrics for “PAINSYNC” were written during this period.

In terms of technical prowess, I learned A LOT over the last year and a half. Thanks to some reading, a lot of experimenting, and touching base with other producers I was able to take harsh recordings from my 2019 sessions and clean them up into a listenable state. Writing songs is one thing. Music production is something else entirely. As time goes on I will definitely improve as there is still so much for me to learn. I am really looking forward to the future because of this.

“PAINSYNC” isn’t some shiny #wtfbbq darksynth release chock full of wonderful hi-tech production values. I wrote all of these songs before I learned to streamline my process. That said, I am very proud of this album. I think that “PAINSYNC” represents the best work I have done to date. And even if it is chock full of flaw on the production side of things, the songs are right where they need to be.

If I had to describe “PAINSYNC” it’s like a Western interpretation of late 1990s Japanese Visual Kei, crossed with Synthwave, Coldwave, and Gothic Rock/Metal. Fans of Depeche Mode, Malice Mizer, Christian Death, Tangerine Dream, and Cradle of Filth might find something to enjoy here.

The cover artwork is by the fantastic Atom Cyber. Even though his artwork may seem explicit, please understand that it depicts a version of what I went through last year. I purposely chose Atom because he was the only artist capable of fully encapsulating what it meant for me to live through such an invasive and painful surgery...as well as the horrific recovery that followed.

My surgeon says I need to settle down
As she cuts into my flesh
Turning my everything inside out
My legs are spread and splayed
No parts do I grieve.
I am a throne of wounds
Torn apart from my Adam to Eve.

credits

released September 10, 2020

Written, Performed, and Produced by Nikoletta Winters.

Artwork by Atom Cyber. (www.artstation.com/atomcyber)

I wrote and recorded these songs from February 2019-August 2019 E.V.

Vocals and guitars were recorded from March 17th 2020-April 30th 2020 E.V.

Mixed and Mastered by Nikoletta Winters from June 2020 to August 7th, 2020.

I would like to thank everyone, past, present, and future for supporting Virtual Intelligence. You know who you are. Please look forward to things to come. I'm just getting started. I love you all.

Art should never be about what is easy, or what sells. I refuse to be a cult of personality. I am no one. This is my Truth.

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